March 9th, 2014.

Why write something about a week ago or more?

It has been so long, that I haven't written anything on my blog. And I had forgotten a little bit how
to start off things.

But as time pass by, I didn't even realized that it was the day I suppose to remember up all along the way.

I'm still at lost though. Being 20 hasn't been anything to define me, what should I do. True as they say.
When you're as young as 20, you still won't know what would happen in the future. But you do hold that
heavy kind of responsibility. You just don't what it would be because you're still too young.

Up along this way, I'm very grateful I am able to see the meaning of friendship.

"To care less", means to care less of those who wouldn't care about you.

It is saddening to see your friends quarelling for a matter that is misunderstood. And when you know that
happens, that's people starts talking behind everyone's back. It doesn't occur to me, or should I say
part of it; yes.
But I feel it is must to published my thoughts, as the meaning of friendship in my view is not
to be taken lightly.

What is more scarier is that they smiled and be nice in front of you. But you don't need to think more.
Because it is true when they say;

"Your enemies are not those who hold their swords against you. They are the ones who stand by
you with their daggers behind their back."

When that happens in front of your eyes, it suddenly became a life-lesson for you. You suddenly start to
think that everyone had actually been plastic right in front of you, even if it does not occur to you
directly.

So in the end, you were forced in a situation who to trust.

Dishonesty.
Untrusted.
Misunderstandings.
Doubts.

It's like seeing a fire burning in a haystack, and slowly it burns the whole house to the ground.

To be honest, I myself do not like talking about this. But when you see a whole new picture of a society
around you like that, it gets very wrong.

Why must we have a culture to stay silent in mending the wrondoers and wrongdoings?

When that happens, people formed cliques. Talk about unity were all fairytales. Why must this be regarded
as a norm? Of forming cliques?

What I do not understand is that we tend to leave our friends as they would be, and let them left you
silently, fading away.
Why is it that some of us do not appreciate the presence of their own valuable ones?
Why must we be so stuck up with our own small cliques? It is simply stupid and selfish.

We always tend to leave people behind. And when they had a different view of their own ways, we were quick
to jump into conclusion that they were bad and not to be trusted.
So everyone stays away from that person. And everyone throws insults and slanders that made their own
loss of self-respect.

Why must we made fun of our own friends' pride? It is simply wrong. It simply shows that you were not
respecting the way he is proud of you as a friend in front of everyone.

I'm not saying you should be touchy and be careful or be fragile to your friends. Sure, you can be as how
you wish to be. Joke without any limitations and et cetera. But when your friend needs you, give him support.

If you can't take any actions, words would do. There's simply millions of ways
to show motivational or whatever kind of support you could give rather than just ignore.
Or simply say "That's not my problem".

What the hell?

Which is why I said. Many people turned 20. But they didn't know and cannot act like they have lived for
2 decades.

People always talk bad to our own people but they never made progress to repair themselves.

When I was in RMC, there was always constant support from your friends.

You help your friends not because they were part of you. But you helped them because it might be the last day
he would live and forever you'll regret.

But that culture did not exist in this civilian world that I live. It was just another part of my army life
that I've experienced.

We were quick to hurt others and let them slowly fall while we do not know he is in pieces.
All the way until the end when he was gone, he is forgotten. Making a few that remembers him and his good
deeds regretted why did they too, let him falter, falling behind their bond of friendship.

So that makes a lesson here. Do not easily trust people who smiled at you. Because behind, he may have hid
daggers waiting for you to fall and fall.

Perhaps we were quick to judge others by their mistake.
I said we because we are society.
The "we" signifies everyone.

Sometimes people.

They're very good at making words out of their mouth. But they never did good in thinking.

It's saddening.

I'm not being emotional. But when this happens in the circle of our friendship, that means we simply do not
trust each other. Behind our laughs, there might be anger. And behind our smile, there might be vengeance.

Friends are suppose to support each other. If he's behind you falling down, then take him to a your level
or maybe greater than you. And he would do the same for you.

But humans never learn.
Until something bad happens to them.
So be it.

If one day that person was gone by the time you needed him, that day would be the day you regret.

Do not be surprised, for what others did to you and you do not like but you did the same, another would
come forward to show you even worst.
Asyraf Amir. 20140320.