Love, Life, Time.

"Ho avuto la libertà, ma non ho visto. Ho avuto il tempo, ma non sapevo. Ho avuto l'amore, ma non mi sento".

"I had liberty, but I did not see. I had time, but I did not know. I had love, but I did not feel."

I had been deleting and rewriting things.
I had also been toring pages and erasing things, thinking which one suits the best for one to be read.

There was nothing much really for today.
Except for a very happy, calm, quiet day.

You know, when you're trapped in a traffic, in the middle of the road or waiting in a car or a bus to your on destination, your mind starts to think about yourself.

"What does it feels like being 20?"
You started to ask. Our life story seemingly is, different from one another simply because our path differs from one another.

I started to think what are the essential things that we have been missing in our life.

And that is love, life and time.

Our life is full of struggle, but we have never perceived in that kind of way. Because we think it's beautiful. But somewhere out there too in that beauty of life, is full of lies, negativity and the truth, is not always beautiful either.
That is why.

If you have said:
"Why life is unfair?"
"Why somebody out there needed to go out and ruin someone else's life?" 

Then you may had been wrong, in the very first place of your thoughts.

There are too many questions. Too many things, that life keeps us guessing.

And that is where we relied on time. We implicate possibilities and make decisions. And then we regret, we tried very hard not to. By then we have forgotten, what was the sole purpose for us to live, if what we only see is sorrow?

As we get older, we would learn more things, and answers to our wonders. But by the time we had know them, we have been too late, because we are already old.

That's when you wished you had more time. More time to erase your regrets. More time to mend your mistakes.

When all of the things that you had of what God gave you and you took it for granted fades away, that's when you realize you lacked love. The love from your friends, the love from your family and the love from the one you treasured.

You may have know lots of people around this earth. But as you move forward, there would only be a handful that might be closer to you.
You may realize that one day or sooner, you have met someone new, you will part away from them. But you are unable to do anything.

And these things happens, because we tend to live by a cause or a creed. To succeed in life, to move forward, to change, to get A in exams and many more.
As a student and a youth, we chase for a better university, a better course or a better life. Even if we do not like the way as it is, we live on, continue to exploit more what life can offer us for our cause or our creed.

As time passes by, people part away from our life. People bid goodbye, with some never to be seen or heard again.
But in one of those people we bid goodbye stayed quiet, as they were ashamed to live in the present life that they had, which they wanted to conceal so much of their past and start their life anew. Erasing so much of past mistakes and history, while they were still young.

People know these things, bidding farewell and everything is going to happen. But they just don't do anything. Because these things slowly turn you to be matured, as time passed by.
No greater achievement could be accomplished without a greater sacrifice, they say.

Love, life and time.

It would take more time, perhaps to a few decades to finally understood these three. It would just be wonderful, if you have more.
Asyraf Amir. 20140207.