I didn't do much today. Yesterday I renewed my IC. haha.
Still with long hair.
I didn't know why I persists with a long hair. I didn't really like it, as it looks a little messy.
Probably it's just myself, I wanted to see how I am happy in a different look. Sounds weird but, you have to admit. There are many things in this world that people didn't tell what they personally like. Such as, eating alone while watching TV, walking around with the outfit they loved and smiling. Well, happiness. There's many ways to explain them.
Today I was suppose to go take my IC as well as a hangout. But unfortunately the weather was bad and taking my IC seems impossible as it was far. In other words, my parents were unable to send me there.
So I look outside and it was raining bits to bits. It's so calm, everything in my house was just so quiet. What you can only hear was the raindrops outside.. It was cold and I just stared outside the window, of what could things be. I fell asleep as soon after that, without any worries nor disappointment. Calm, as I go.
Today I was suppose to go take my IC as well as a hangout. But unfortunately the weather was bad and taking my IC seems impossible as it was far. In other words, my parents were unable to send me there.
So I look outside and it was raining bits to bits. It's so calm, everything in my house was just so quiet. What you can only hear was the raindrops outside.. It was cold and I just stared outside the window, of what could things be. I fell asleep as soon after that, without any worries nor disappointment. Calm, as I go.
Things can turn out to be anything, be it bad or good, we do not know. Unfortunate events happens, but not many of us can stay calm.
A lot of people rather thought of their problems they face as somewhat obstacle to them, not as a challenge to overcome what they wanted to have.
In this world, things can be so simple. When we think and go through it deeper, it is hard.
Like aeroplanes. When we were kids, we were told that planes could fly with their propellers and wings. But as we get older, physics explains how the plane flies, with such velocity, angle, speed and etc. It gets more and more complex. But the conclusion is, it can fly.
As things gets more complex, we turned to be panic. We didn't even remember every questions must have an answer when we were panic.
Things always happen for a reason. The more we run away from the obstacle we faced, we'll just be going around and around in a circle to infinity. We'll just see back the person who we were from yesterday. Pointing the blame to him or her, them or theirs. It just reflects on how coward we are facing the challenges we see.
It's fine. Everyone takes time for recovery. They might hangout, take two buds of cigarette, play games and laugh around or whatever. But doing that forever won't solve anything.
Some people cry when they fail, touched or when they were hurt. But I don't. To be honest, it's so hard for me to drop one or two tears from my eyes.
When I see people around me crying, I could only sigh and go for a reflection. I can't see myself in a tears. Probably it was the training years ago that made me feel like this, I've been used to be just with myself during harsh times. Or it's just myself. I can't see myself in tears because I'd like to be stronger. If I can't, who would do it for me? Who would be happy for me, if I can't be happy for myself?
It was always like this. I could only rely on my own smile to make myself happy again. And thus, I stay calm to return back to my challenge.
I remembered my friend from RMC who was a different company from me, but we were classmates and the same batch. He was from Hotel, I was from Bravo. He saw I was worried and stared for a very long time when I saw my grades weren't really satisfying. I argued with him, finding reasons to my failure. then he said,
In this world, things can be so simple. When we think and go through it deeper, it is hard.
Like aeroplanes. When we were kids, we were told that planes could fly with their propellers and wings. But as we get older, physics explains how the plane flies, with such velocity, angle, speed and etc. It gets more and more complex. But the conclusion is, it can fly.
As things gets more complex, we turned to be panic. We didn't even remember every questions must have an answer when we were panic.
Things always happen for a reason. The more we run away from the obstacle we faced, we'll just be going around and around in a circle to infinity. We'll just see back the person who we were from yesterday. Pointing the blame to him or her, them or theirs. It just reflects on how coward we are facing the challenges we see.
It's fine. Everyone takes time for recovery. They might hangout, take two buds of cigarette, play games and laugh around or whatever. But doing that forever won't solve anything.
Some people cry when they fail, touched or when they were hurt. But I don't. To be honest, it's so hard for me to drop one or two tears from my eyes.
When I see people around me crying, I could only sigh and go for a reflection. I can't see myself in a tears. Probably it was the training years ago that made me feel like this, I've been used to be just with myself during harsh times. Or it's just myself. I can't see myself in tears because I'd like to be stronger. If I can't, who would do it for me? Who would be happy for me, if I can't be happy for myself?
It was always like this. I could only rely on my own smile to make myself happy again. And thus, I stay calm to return back to my challenge.
I remembered my friend from RMC who was a different company from me, but we were classmates and the same batch. He was from Hotel, I was from Bravo. He saw I was worried and stared for a very long time when I saw my grades weren't really satisfying. I argued with him, finding reasons to my failure. then he said,
"If you're spending the whole time thinking what you worry and upset the whole time, what could you do?"
I paused. Realizing how I went into the deepest hole of troubles, I was just making excuses and avoiding my weakness. Until now, I didn't know how to thank him. He wasn't just a friend. Being part of a brotherhood puts you in a situation what we call "sense of belonging" in the military. Your friends are part of you, in whatever situation you are in. It's not just a batch spirit. There's a whole lot more values as you learn from experiences.
Staying calm is one of it, be grateful with what you have, reflect, plan and start all over again.
Of all people's upset faces and things that happens towards them, it was probably a little impossible to hold out your own temper and change them so that you'll be happy.
But if you can't be happy for yourself, who would?
Asyraf Amir. 20121124.
Staying calm is one of it, be grateful with what you have, reflect, plan and start all over again.
Of all people's upset faces and things that happens towards them, it was probably a little impossible to hold out your own temper and change them so that you'll be happy.
That feeling when you don't know why you're happy and you're free out of troubles. haha.
But if you can't be happy for yourself, who would?
Asyraf Amir. 20121124.
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