Serpihan Lama.

The sunlight outside was just too bright, so it was hard for me to take a nap or something. I thought a little thinking would help me to write something here.
Sometimes in a train, I would listen to music and look outside and think how beautiful it was the atmosphere. I kept myself silent while watching. And while that happens, I was thinking.
It was calm, nothing was chaotic this morning. And I feel the air is really good. It's really relaxing, aside from hearing the constant train running every 5-10 minutes. There's some feeling of countryside here.

That feeling of letting go someone. Is really hard right? I rested my head back, thinking how many people have I met and left. How many people I have seen and keep in touch so far. But it's alright, I thought of it. As long as you are able to maintain a happy smile with yourself, it is good enough. It is really good though sometimes I stumbled upon some people at some places.

March, Spring. 2011.
"No, you can't back down. I know when you get mad you just busted everything and get serious. You do it for Bravo." He says.
"Goddamn it! I'm doing it for Bravo!" I yelled. He smirk and so did I. When he left, he showed thumbs up. Off he goes, I stood up. And box.

Yeah, the blue one is me. I didn't remember what happened in the picture. But I won. Thanks man.

That was the spirit we got back then. The days are getting old, but the spirit never was. Like the old Chinese saying "When you burn a flower, the petals burn. But the scent may never fade to be remembered."

I'm not trying to be mellow here, show off or anything. There was nothing to show here or talk big here. But what am I going to talk about is a man and of course, a friend of mine, whom I'd like to spend a few words. about him. He is wise and taught me a lot of things. So yeah, until people said, this guy is really serious and quiet. And looked really like the army and stuff. Well I'm not so sure of myself.

This was the last day, pack up and stuff. 

It's not that I elaborate things about him. He wasn't a nerd or a geek whom blindly follows some orders. Nor he wasn't a guy who is hypocrite about what he says, talk big and stuff. Wherever he goes he just make sure himself is neat and tidy. He just make sure that his shirt has sharp sides, ironed and neat. He keeps cool whenever anyone said things he didn't like. He didn't put up a fight unless when he needed to. But when he really means it, he gets really brave when it means to make up his stand in what he believes in. He rarely has flaws in his uniform. There was one time where if anyone woke him up and we go like "HEY I WOKE HIM UP!" Woah yeah! I woke him up! Literally for fun, at the beginning of the year. No one wants to wake up that early because we thought we had it enough last time. But as exam comes closer, me, him and a few others woke up as early as 0400H to study.

But it's not like he had no sense of humor, he does, a hell of a one. Laughs a lot, kept quiet. It's just that he's always straightforward. But not like any man is perfect, he made mistakes after all. Back then he told me he screwed up quite a few of things.
I once asked him, "Hey you got hit and went through so much stuff back then last year and some of it you don't have to go through by our seniors. Looking at your juniors like that making big problems, you don't feel anything do you?" He replied, "Well I don't know, hell yeah really. But that was long ago. Time changes. I really don't know." "Bende tu dah lepas, kan? Biar je lah. (That was long time ago, right? Just let it be.)" He somehow managed to smile and somehow he didn't want to comment on anything.
Ha. The sort of feeling "unfairness" was always evident seeing when people whom are younger than you having better times than you. Or when the time slowly changes and people don't appreciate you for what you have contributed, you felt betrayed. Humans have wanting the sense warmness among their friends or family. But instead you'd have to be a lone-wolf like. Jay Chou once said in his song, "Time can be an antidote, as well as poison I'm taking." Accepting things as it is and a painful truth, consumes time, but it was never easy to start with.

He was always placing the company above than anything else. I supported and give motivations to a lot of people like "Dude you can go, you can do this." There was also one person whom I shall give a credit to him too and like him, he too is wise and fair. He asked whether he could learn up and speak well in English with me.
I won't mind lending some knowledge but I wasn't so good and my grammars are not that great either. But knowing they're like my brother, I helped him. He thought me maths, give tips in some subjects stuff. He also taught me to box and I trained with him as his opponent. He teach me, I teach him some tactics. And he actually won the first prize, and awarded the "Best Fighter".
Actually to begin with, both have helped me and asked me to study English with them. I just merely said to them by reading newspapers is another fast way. Well now I'm proud to say he's now in Turkey having fun there, while his father is working there. I had my times when I was in France and he'll go through what I go though back then. Learning languages was a pain in the ass, but you won't be fluent if you don't work up. Good luck there buddy.
And I say good luck you both, I wasn't myself the best bud you could have during our times. We weren't in the same class in the first place too, but hell what do you care when it comes to comradeship. Everything is fine. I'm sorry I wrote this without your known, but I missed my brothers to be honest. But hell yeah I don't write your names here knowing you all are the timid kind of people. haha. ;))

Some of the people were not written here but what I could have hoped for is that everyone is happy and stuff. I wish it to be in that way. I just missed everyone I've met from friends to family and everyone. I thank everyone for talking with me and even taught me things of what I didn't know. I pray for everyone have a good fortune and fate. I pray everyone succeed in their exams we've done back in 2011. I pray everyone succeed whatever they want to become.

It's fine, to forget me. But remember I have existed in your life within my words here. ;)

You don't have to remember my name. You don't have to remember me. But just remember I have existed in your life from my smiles to your laugh. Even if it's in a short chat or random meet. Never mind if you don't remember me, if you don't re-text me or what. I will remember you as people who have existed in my heart. Just read my words here I wrote in my blog, as a courtesy of friendship that was long forged.

It's late night here. I suppose to have written this around monday, but I didn't know what to write back then. Till then everyone. I'll continue to write. ;))

Asyraf Amir. 2012.