My Sky.

My sky. If we look towards the sky, the color always change by time. Red on the morning, blue on the day, orange on the evening and dark blue or pitch black on the night side.
Anyhow will the color appear, it is wide. It's like our mind, it is wide. You and I share the same sky.

The music is the wind. Close your eyes. The words are the pictures. You can imagine it.

And who the hell would've blasted 80's music at 3AM and spray mosquito repellents on 4AM?

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"Uh, you stay defense."
"What? Gimme forward."
"No we got no one to play on the back! You should be the one."

I was a little mad of course. Usually people would blame the goalkeeper and the defender if the other side scored a goal. And when they scored against the opponent, they get the pride and honor.

So I thought like, "wait up dude". Where's my honor, then? And the people who defended here and goalkeeper? Where is their sportsmanship they bragged about? Not that we who defend and become the goalkeeper wants attention and pride too, but what's the point of calling "a team" when you're not even cooperating?

"You want me in? HA. Fine!" I grinned.

What's the point of fighting over something in a park playing for recess only? But the problem got caught up into competitions and tournaments. So where was the fun in that? It's like being in an action movie without having the action role in it. That serious sucks.

I was a little kid, around 13 years old that time. I remember turning on the TV and saw the defenders and everyone who played their role well was recognized. I thought it was cool even if we didn't have awards something like that, at least they get the respect. I didn't know up then there was "the best defender", "the best striker", "golden boot" and award stuff on FIFA.

I realized respect was need to be earned, not issued or gazetted. I realized it didn't matter what kind of role do you play as long as you give your best and commitment into it. Simply becoming the best isn't recommendation, but solely an objective you should put. Simply for what people undermine you, does not make you a worse person or player far more or less.
Today I learned that I wasn't searching for perfection. I was trying to be one the best. There many other people who are more far better than me, in whatsoever thing. Be it academic, debates, speech-giving or sports, or whatever I've tried in my life. As far as I stand taller or equally among the best, I consider myself am the best. But not successful. Let's get there awhile.

I wasn't such a good player. My academics were just average that time. So I stand among the most of the people. The common ones. Then I realize being all-rounded was a need. So I tried everything and experiment with everything I wanted to be. Because I thought it would be a good benchmark and a good experience, if I were to be thrown into a situation. Like giving speech.

It was until there were only two defenders who were put up to the post. I tried and it did worked well and played as defender. So I realize my job was just to intercept them, slide or what.
Woops. My tooth brittle when I fell to the ground. No no no. Not broke. Brittle. Literally. haha.
I consider that was an experience. I never did gave up the game and kept on playing until I was named for "man of the match".

I enjoyed knowing lots of people from all around the world. I had a friend from Japan whom I knew played football quite well and have a great stamina as well as speed. He dribbles really well and I learned a lot from him. It was no wonder he played for a local club and as well as school. I played for school only.
He was quite different than other people from Japan. He was the only one loves football, while the other guys enjoyed baseball. Another popular game in his homeland Japan.
Together with him and my other Brazilian and South Korean friends played football together. There was no shit or problems with seniority to juniors. It was all about comradeship. We played until our school got a chance to play with other schools in Europe. But it was nearing to exams and the fees was high as there were no sponsors. We didn't go. Quite a few did.

That was long time ago, in France. Now we went back to our own countries and pursue our life there. Carry on with our dreams and stuff.
I've recently got in touch with Hyung-Ju and Jongjoon. They're both South Koreans but lived in different country. Hyung-Ju lived in South Korea and went either a police university there or in Seoul University. I'm not so sure. Jongjoon is in US and went for university over there but I didn't remember the name. haha.
The two others, Nozomu, a Japanese and Luiz, a Brazilian, I haven't got in touch with them. It's been so long actually though, years actually.

It might sound sad, but I don't think it is. That is how it would be like in our life. We meet then we carry on.
We're not "best friends forever" but I would say we are just "best friends" or "best buddies" you would say. Due to to the time difference and busy life schedules we have, we rarely contact each other.

This is another topic though. I would arguably say the idea of "best friends forever" is kind of absurd but it's not ridiculous. Friends or camaraderie doesn't end there when you stop seeing each other or talking because you won't a chance to. It might sound childish, but the real meaning behind it means friendship is something that is never ending if you don't spoil them. Using them for your purpose and leaving them behind and eventually backstab is something stupid. Eventually your own actions shows how selfish you are.

Does it?

It happens. To everyone. But the fact you're missing that person makes you still are "best friends" or however you want to call it, right? Or just simply friends is enough. Or fine. Probably the "missing" feeling is irrelevant but let's say you found someone you haven't met for long and years or so. It is undeniable your reactions would've be surprised.

Instead of pulling, forcing every of your friends to achieve everyone's success, you only achieve what you really want by yourself. You're proud of it. But you must remember, materialistic things does not last. What is inside the world is not eternal. Fine, be capitalistic. Devour the weak and put yourself higher in some of your tertiary status.

But you carry the fact, that happiness does not last there. There are many other things you could have discover with your own friends, going through hardships. And who knew how many troubles would have appear.

I think when you're all alone and what surrounds you are only your friends, they were the ones who would see how older have you become. Not by age, but maturity. Yeah, probably it was many years ago. But that many years ago have taught you to become of what you are. So is there any reason why do you chose to fight or distance away from people? That is completely irrelevant.

It is true you cannot be too nice or too mean. But one should remember that, what you do not like, you do not undo to others. :))

Bosan ah. Ada benda bestt tak? ;)
Asyraf Amir. 2012.