Varsity.

Seriously.

I have never thought of varsity life would be "this" busy. Really busy. Even if you're not doing anything, technically you are still "busy". 

Days and weeks pass by. And finally it's been almost a year I have been here in Sarawak.

A lot things happened actually.
My journey has been a kind of like a "rainbow" journey. A continuity of laugh, sad and so many more mixtures of feelings. Both pleasant and non-pleasant.

I still could not draw much conclusion.

Varsity life differs very much so as to compare with school life.

I had my days where I am too occupied with books and journals. Researching articles. Writing my papers. Editting videos. Flying to KL for research. Sometimes I even forgot about having dinner. My sleeping hours went screwed during study week. I would turn up a jazz bar music so I'd get into the mood of "not gonna sleep today".

In the end of the day, I would still get "pokai-ed".

But other times was simply just, pure fun. All happiness. Nothing else.
We'd laugh at simple jokes. Hang out here and there because the mall is so near. Driving miles away deep to Sarawakian forest and explore its nature. See the beaches. Play rugby. Celebrate birthdays.

I just can't list everything.
There's just a lot of stuff that was really happening.

And while all that was happening, I realized that everything that we are going through were just so short.

Now I'm like, "Wow, it's June."

How fast can time be, when moments slip away from you without you even knowing? I realize that we are all actually living based on a paradox of whether we should be stagnant or move on.

We all wanted happiness, the kind of living where we would all be happy. Staying in a same place. But at the same time, we wanted to progress while that kind of happiness that we now possesed.  We wanted to be happy, to keep happiness we now have. But at the same time, we do not want sadness. No sacrifice, no pain. Nothing.

I've realized this long ago.
Keeping everything in the same place and keeping things as "how it should be" is close to impossible. There is no way that you can progress and achieve a better sense of living by being stagnant in the same place that you are in now.

No matter how happy things get, I always knew there would be some ways or things that would ruin one or few moments I had now. But what good would I get by worrying.

Varsity life, so far it is exciting in my point of view. I look for more adventures. More of what I could explore not just myself but the world that I still do not know and understand.

As for love.
Never mind. Haha.

Study week. What the hell.
Asyraf Amir. 20150604.