Beautiful Life.

I kinda had a hard time writing this. I twirled my pencil a lot of times to think, trying to remember and stuff. At first I tried off writing this on with a pen before publishing it. But a pencil would do fine I guess.

I have nothing to tell other than this. If I wrote other things, it would look too awkward. But I told myself it would be the best if I write it because these things are precious as gold.
And yeah, like gold. As times and years passes by, the prices changes but usually it would be expensive.

Like memories. As times and years passers by it gels old but something that is valuable.

Goodbyes.

We would always laugh, tease, name call or whatever we would do to our friends. But we never thought about one day, we would wave at each other saying goodbye. Possibly fading from our lives and never be seen again.

There we continue to reminisce how nice it was living under the sun. How that happy and sad times are churned  into a feeling what you called "missing someone".

We live a life, in a world that spins. That evolves around with choices we made and our dreams ahead.
Those happy momentoes that we spent with our friends, actually do have a "time". A "time" where it chases you. A "time" where it scares you. A "time" where it challenges you.

Have you ever thought of putting a cork on the middle of the hourglass? (The countdown clock where they got sand on them?)
Have you ever thought of stopping the "time"?
More accurately; Have you ever wish watching a youtube or video or movie with limitless amount of time so it plays only good things you loved?

But this is life. One thing you never realized in your life is that you never realized you stood up to the "time".

You never realized, you won quite a number of good times in your life. It was probably because of your friends and family for that, standing behind you.

But the price you have to pay was huge.
Sweat, tears or probably blood. Literally.
But you don't cry because you believe you are strong. You believe tears gets drier when you are further away from your loved ones. Perhaps that would be your family or friends.
The waves gets tougher when you're far apart from them. But the only thing on your mind was their pictures. Probably the picture of the one you loved smiles at you, you began to have strength to do your best in everything you do.

It didn't matter if that person is far or never be seen again in your life.
What matters is it left a legacy in your life.

Because you were alone, and probably they were 3 years ago from your memories.
It didn't matter if they remember you or not. They have lived. You should be grateful.

When I see my friends pictures of their school life or hanging out, I used to say how I wished I was there. I could still imagine how loud have they talked, nor how big have they laughed.
But I said no then, I was grateful how happy they were, how did they cherish their times and how ever broader their smile without me.
A farewell, has its price after all. I can do nothing but smiled because they had grow to become something of they dreamed of I guess. You can't blame them for not remembering you. People changed, places changed, everything changed. You would probably be using that super giant computer to access facebook if computer hadn't then changed. So it is, comparable to people. I can do nothing but smile.

Perhaps one way is to remember them forever in your life? If a lot of people do that, it'll be vice versa. Everyone remembers everyone.

I missed my brothers in RMC much. Each time I looked at the pictures, I just wonder how the hell I went through these hellish times. Friends really did meant more than just its words when you go through harsh times. There is a saying, "Boys will be boys." And I think you would've knew what do boys do. From the jungles and to everywhere we stepped, we stand together. Nobody, but us. I love it how we fought for ourselves and how we challenged the whole world. I love it how we stand together proudly. We are from the few, the proud. Just us.

As for now, that is all my story. I have waved lots of goodbyes and farewells to a lot of people. And so will you. I have befriended with lots of people all over around the world and I've seen so much goodbye and farewells.
I wrote this because everyone does miss everything that they have left.
I'm telling you something, you see a hell lots of changes of things in youth life. I guessed I have seen only a little. And probably so do you. What more could've show up from these years then?
Everything has its meaning. I hope you have a better life and a much pleasant one.

Asyraf Amir. 2012.