Checked. Raya?

Hair cut? Done.
Shined shoes? On the way.
Books? 1/3 of them. Touched. (For the rest, go to hell.)
Bringing myself to college? No. Not ready.

RMC Independence Day + Raya Celebration. Before going back. Pfft, nobody cares of what's happening around you when you wait. Or waiting for something. Everyone is taking pictures. :)

So it is just normal. When it comes to "going back", I'd called that the "going back" symptom. You just feel it's so guilty, your steps becomes so heavy to head back to that place again. But never mind that. It's normal. haha. 

The wind was so cold outside that it blew me ferociously. I thought it was such a cool breeze. 

"Simpan ni elok-elok! Karang buat sambung belajar, senang! "

(Keep this well! Use it to further your studies, get it?)

That was the words of an old man, who gave me duit raya when I said "It's okay. I'm old enough to get it." haha. Pfft. Old enough? Right.

Then it came with another dialogue. It was so common that everytime I visited other people's homes (whom some I never knew but my parents does haha!) heard of.

"Kamu belajo lek-lok tau? // Semoga berjaya. // Good Luck"

(Study well, ya? // Good luck. // Go kill yourself. (no shit. It's just a lame random sarcasm. :O ))

You know, shaking hands was a common thing we do. Asking for forgiveness before bidding farewell to everyone and etc. But then the other old man came up to me while shaking hands "Selamat Hari Raya // Happy Eid-ul-Fitr" with everyone said, 

"Esok-esok jadi pegawai, ye kamu! *smiles*"
(The next time I see you kid, you're a military officer! Alright?)

Those words become an anecdote for me to live on and continue.

Even though I was planning to hold those steering and fly in the sky, or pilot easier to say, I was speechless because it was those words that made me think. "Am I really heading there to become one?"

So I froze for a while that day. 

It was just because I was thinking, do I have to repeat that one year I used to spent here to five years? Just for a process to become someone who commands other people and put those ranks on top of the shoulder (or epaulette you call those stuff?)

Such hardships. The process and the chronology takes patience and a strong will to move on. Even if, I've already been taught and know about it.

But God knows best. I should be working harder instead of thinking outcomes.

You know what did people say when they saw people making planes you saw today? They thought it was ridiculous. Stupid. Bunch of retards for thinking they could literally "fly".

But it was not because a lump of metal that today we can travel the whole world right? It's all because we believe that it could "fly". Literally.

Wright Brothers did attempts to built the aircraft above. People wasn't so interested in US so they went to Europe where the French and Brits and every Europeans was interested in flying.
Then they said, "Awesome!" and bingo. You got people flying some stuff until it become a war machine in World War I and II until now.

Now everyone got their planes. Now everyone can fly. - Air Asia (needless for me to highlight it).

OKAY enough. I wasn't going to turn this blog to more politics. Maybe. Later.

But yeah. Just because they believe that it could fly. It just flew and goes up above the sky. Until now, people are still wondering how more than 5 tonnes of engine craft could flew up to the sky like a feather.

That was the reason I wanted to become a pilot. I was fascinated by it. I believe I could. :)

That was the story. Simple as that. This, is my story. What's yours?

GREAT. THE ULTIMATE, ME.

Asyraf Amir.