Gradually Fades: Form V, Last Year.

"Is it the time was too fast, or that I have been dreaming?"

That's why I said to myself as I looked at the clock (this morning). It was 0600H. I thought I just felt some joyful moments of my life, but it was just a dream. After marching practice, I got 2 days 1 holiday.

A day is only a dream.

It was quite as if things were really calm. Everything is quiet. That is on straits of Johore. :D

But still. For me, I feel that I was naive knowing things were actually easy, but it is hard.

For me, I think it is okay if my writings are not heard nor read, but I just wanted to write. So it's nevertheless for me again to say "what up?" in every of my post or the chatbox anymore I guess.

But up until now, I have made a promise between myself that I would be more matured. So up until today, I still haven't found an answer to what it is to "win" in life. Is it trophy? Is it memories? Is it your friends?

The answer wasn't there.

The real reason why I went to college is because I wanted to search my answers for my questions. Rather than knowing other people, I would first look through myself, where have I gone wrong before this in my past.

Haha. Don't get me wrong here, but true that we gotta move on because we're so busy of our lives. Time was so far to so few. But indeed I don't deny I still like my form 3 life where everything was there and you dont need to do anything. When it comes to form 4 especially form 5, you gotta start strategise what you are going to do, plan what you gotta do before your school life ends and strive your best to do well in exams. I don't blame it on anyone, friends nor everyone for what had happened. We all in fact, have the common dream, to succeed in life. :D

What I really mean is, this year is my last year in school. If I would list out lots of things in my life, I would greatly and honouredly repeat those years and create much better situation. Too bad clocks would only move forward, which means we are now getting older.

But nothing is there to repair the past. It's just like the way it is. I could only smile to what it is already. I wish to thank you to everyone who coloured my life here. :D

I wonder if I came to places I have been to before during my school times, I imagine of remnants of memories, where did I used to hangout and etc. It's been fun stuff to do. 2 years, indeed is short, not long.

I wonder what's next? Good luck everyone, to whomever reading this. :D

"Hanya tinggal kenangan."

Asyraf Amir. 2011