A Strength For A New Start. (4th February 2011)

"I didn't know or think where should I go."

Hey. It's been long ever since january ago I haven't blogged anything. You know, it has been far too long I haven't even touched pens and papers to write out something and things like I usually do. Sports, study and everything revolves around until the end of the day, it's worth to sleep. :D

All round and round from college it seems so weird odd. Ups and downs I have learned, but it was never boring. Sad or happy are the only two things that came to life.

So here it starts! Inilah hikayatku. 25th of January. 2010.

I remember the date as it was clearly on my mind, the start of bitterness. My steps finally changed from a step to one million or more journey. I would retell the story of how was it like, to be known in the "Boys Wing." I thought things go smoothly, but it was a little hard. Order are given with bark, they shout. I thought that it was standard, normal thing. On the evening, it was aerobic run with the seniors. Running around 2.4KM. Then it was done three laps, that's around 7.2KM.

16th January. 2011. I wasn't on duty. But I was tasked guide the juniors to their rooms, making them suiting the environment. I wasn't doing anything special though. Only such little things. Just guiding the juniors to their rooms. They wore white longsleeve T-shirt, black shoes, black slacks, black tie. Looks like their attending a funeral ceremony. But as usual. They got some confused face, they're still do not know what to do. Well, nothing of my concern anyways haha!

There are more things to say but it just couldn't fit over here. Believe me, I thought I was going to end my debating courier. Haha! But that has changed. I started really thinking. Am I going to put a full stop over here? Wait, it was really unfinished I thought, that day when I qualified I started to think that I didn't give my best shot. Then I tried again, I made it.

I realized that things are very much or quite hard to understand. But you got to make it clear. Indeed I do not understand it at first, but yeah! Sometimes you gotta do what do you gotta do. Probably choices are there, but if we didn't do it, we regret.

I didn't think of the holidays passes by too fast or too short. But it feels. Sad. Lonely. Nothing did really happened. It just happened too fast and too little I thought.

"If you were to die, then do what is it to live. If you were to live, then do what is it before to die."

Wonder what's next? I'll blog later. :D

Happy Chinese New Year those celebrating it.

Asyraf Amir.