"Pertemuan, Perpisahan, adat manusia biasa. Hilang di mata tapi di hati takkan lupa. Berdoalah kita agar aman dan sentosa. Semoga kita berjumpa lagi satu masa"
"Should all acquaintance be forgot and never brought to mind? Should all acquaintance be forgot and that's for all ensign. For all ensign, my dear! For all ensign! We make a cup of cryness yet for all ensign."
This is the last song we sang during our last performance when marching.
It's called Passing Out Parade for Form 5. Easy to say, some sort of like graduation celebration in a military way.
"Should all acquaintance be forgot and never brought to mind? Should all acquaintance be forgot and that's for all ensign. For all ensign, my dear! For all ensign! We make a cup of cryness yet for all ensign."
This is the last song we sang during our last performance when marching.
It's called Passing Out Parade for Form 5. Easy to say, some sort of like graduation celebration in a military way.
Hey what up!
A long day with much sweat is the taste of bitter but you got the glory.
I've been living in college without any outings for 5 weeks straight, I've felt like going to college everyday really feels like already an occupation, a soldier, rather than a student.
Even so, it's hell of a memory. When I look back at it, I'd hell laugh at it haha! XDD
I would say finishing up a year here in college is very hard. Wearing that beret you see that I placed in head symbolizes the responsibilities I bear, a basis of every common soldier. For my instance, for every students that went to college, but we were known as "boy" as were told we are "soldier boys".
I've been holding seriously my stories to post on blogger. Haha!
Seriously, ever wonder why the hell that there's so much people out there having fun while we are still thinking what's happening outside?
That's us. But every little or huge things that happened to us, we don't complain about it. Once we have stepped in, there was this feeling like leaving every single thing that you have now slowly fades away.
Your moments that you spent before this become a precious memory. Friends that you have now became your asset to achieve what do you want. In another words, you have that feeling or sense of appreciation and you just had it. Things that you used to own are very valuable.
The very first week was really tiring week. It was only the same thing, marching and marching.
"Kiri, Kiri, Kiri Kanan Kiri!" "Bergerak ke kiri, berturut-turut, ke kiri, pusing!"
All those marching commands are always screamed at us.
But before that, we would have what we called "PT" or "Physical Training" on the morning. So imagine, after that we march and then on the evening we'd study. haha! Nothing is impossible for us, I guess that's the word they're really trying to say to us. XDD
Then the second week was putting on your camouflage uniform or that green black slashes that uniform. We then learned disassemble and reassembling M16A1 or the gun that you always used for march. As for real soldiers, they used AUG Steyr, which is different. How to shoot, setting up base, sentry etc. Basis of soldiers including treating wounds are also taught to us.
For the next weeks, as form 5 finished they're SPM, we continued to march with them. This time, it's with them. Preparations for Passing Out Parade are given 100% effort and from morning to evening, it's always about marching.
That's why they say "green shirts under the hot sun" are tough guys. We stand and march until there are tanned spots from our shirt and beret. When we took our beret off, imagine having a line on your face 24 hours, below are dark and the forehead part is bright. It look like a chimp you know haha!
Waking up at 0400H isn't an easy thing bro. When you first time wake up, it's like you saying "wtf am I doing here?" and then when water splashes onto your body showering, you'd say "SHIT! I'm in college!" All of sudden you'd just realize from a small dream to a big reality, it's all about telling yourself "I can do it. I can do it. I can do it." many times to yourself. So setting up your mentality is challenging, but you'll have to get used to it as there are not many choices left.
But really. For all the weeks I've been through, I can say that it's worth it you know. I can finally conclude for this year that I understand the meaning of "Friends" and of what yourself is all about.
It's that confidence or should I say, the thing that you always held onto and what you really believe in, no matter what subject or what is it. Believing yourself, your comrades, people, you could just have to be careful on people.
Time is like money. The more you spent is like moments to you, but you have to wisely use it so that you won't feel any regrets, or should I say, lost.
I always learned something new and different. You might feel happy but they are deep as the sea, things that make you sad, in other words, you can't see the things that would make you sad, but in some time it would resurface, finally you knew what was right and wrong.
I guess every humans have that kind of level of perfection. Every humans are made not as perfect as he is but as best as he is. Some people had sense of hypocrite, seeing others as wrong and he is the only one right. I mean, that's totally stupid right? But how about the world, I haven't seen it yet, but I've seen the example.
I guess life is very unique. If we put fruits in a basket, they are many colours of them. Red, yellow, green, purple whatever it is. Every of it are so mysterious and questioning. Outside might be seen as ripe but inside might be foul. It may smell good but taste like shit. XDD
But you see, the one that you want that fills your wishes are the ones that taste, look and smell good. We don't know what are the outcomes of people and what would happen to us. Is it fate? Is it coincidence? To know it, you have to take risk. So eat the fruit one by one and feel it, how do you go through them. Bitter? Sweet? You'd have to take it. :D
I finally learned the moment I say goodbye to my friends in SAB was really hard. To move onwards is not a must but rather as a choice. That's why the sky is too far, the moment you leave, is moment you would think "Did I do the right thing or not?" You'd even asked yourself even more.
But when I learned about "survival for soldiers" training, deserted in the jungle, going out in the darkness of the jungle at night, it's not about giving up but hope and confidence that you have, it's all about moving on for changes. Time won't go back, so does the people passed away, like my friend in RMC, won't come back.
"Putera-Putera Kanan! Akan berjalan keluar! Dari Kiri, Perlahan Jalan!"
*drum beats, "Pertemuan, Perpisahan, adat manusia biasa..."*
Every second from the marching command that was given, I was thinking about the line that I finally escape from. I mean, was all the things I went through, shining shoes, being military and punished in such way at still teen age was really, really, a worth thing that should I do?
Or how should I say, the seniors whom had given us much of things, what have I learned from them? Or should from the very beginning and before I chose my hair to become bald to make myself the same treatment as every "soldier boys" was really such a thing, that I should or shouldn't have chose? Should I myself stayed the same place where I've stayed from the very beginning?
I knew either way, I would still part away from the thing I used to have. But should I? Is it true that the people who worries themselves are stupid?
From that, I kept ignoring that question on my mind and continue to sing.
"Hilang di mata tapi di hati takkan lupa. Berdoalah kita agar aman dan sentosa. Semoga kita berjumpa lagi satu masa... Should all acquintance be forgot and never brought to mind?..."
But I can't run away from it. So I chose to cherish and laugh with all my might. :D
What I've been through, that doesn't matter really you know. I don't wish to tell it because 2010 was so dark that I myself learned so much from it, and yet it was the year I converted myself from my civilian life to military environment. Appreciating, friendship, hardship, laughing. It was so much of mixed feeling.
That's why they say "strong men don't cry." Finally I escaped with all being patience and finally, I'm a senior. The last days would be the last moments. The past are memoirs. "Yang lepas itu jadikan tauladan." Isn't that the right word? Maybe. But staying strong, patient and holding on, finally it made a real man standing on the battefield. Lest we forget.
More to come? Stay with me. Happy X-mas to everyone who is putting the stars on the tree and presents on the floor. ;D
"Semoga kita akan berjaya."
Asyraf Amir. 2010-2011.
I've been living in college without any outings for 5 weeks straight, I've felt like going to college everyday really feels like already an occupation, a soldier, rather than a student.
Even so, it's hell of a memory. When I look back at it, I'd hell laugh at it haha! XDD
I would say finishing up a year here in college is very hard. Wearing that beret you see that I placed in head symbolizes the responsibilities I bear, a basis of every common soldier. For my instance, for every students that went to college, but we were known as "boy" as were told we are "soldier boys".
I've been holding seriously my stories to post on blogger. Haha!
Seriously, ever wonder why the hell that there's so much people out there having fun while we are still thinking what's happening outside?
That's us. But every little or huge things that happened to us, we don't complain about it. Once we have stepped in, there was this feeling like leaving every single thing that you have now slowly fades away.
Your moments that you spent before this become a precious memory. Friends that you have now became your asset to achieve what do you want. In another words, you have that feeling or sense of appreciation and you just had it. Things that you used to own are very valuable.
The very first week was really tiring week. It was only the same thing, marching and marching.
"Kiri, Kiri, Kiri Kanan Kiri!" "Bergerak ke kiri, berturut-turut, ke kiri, pusing!"
All those marching commands are always screamed at us.
But before that, we would have what we called "PT" or "Physical Training" on the morning. So imagine, after that we march and then on the evening we'd study. haha! Nothing is impossible for us, I guess that's the word they're really trying to say to us. XDD
Then the second week was putting on your camouflage uniform or that green black slashes that uniform. We then learned disassemble and reassembling M16A1 or the gun that you always used for march. As for real soldiers, they used AUG Steyr, which is different. How to shoot, setting up base, sentry etc. Basis of soldiers including treating wounds are also taught to us.
For the next weeks, as form 5 finished they're SPM, we continued to march with them. This time, it's with them. Preparations for Passing Out Parade are given 100% effort and from morning to evening, it's always about marching.
That's why they say "green shirts under the hot sun" are tough guys. We stand and march until there are tanned spots from our shirt and beret. When we took our beret off, imagine having a line on your face 24 hours, below are dark and the forehead part is bright. It look like a chimp you know haha!
Waking up at 0400H isn't an easy thing bro. When you first time wake up, it's like you saying "wtf am I doing here?" and then when water splashes onto your body showering, you'd say "SHIT! I'm in college!" All of sudden you'd just realize from a small dream to a big reality, it's all about telling yourself "I can do it. I can do it. I can do it." many times to yourself. So setting up your mentality is challenging, but you'll have to get used to it as there are not many choices left.
But really. For all the weeks I've been through, I can say that it's worth it you know. I can finally conclude for this year that I understand the meaning of "Friends" and of what yourself is all about.
It's that confidence or should I say, the thing that you always held onto and what you really believe in, no matter what subject or what is it. Believing yourself, your comrades, people, you could just have to be careful on people.
Time is like money. The more you spent is like moments to you, but you have to wisely use it so that you won't feel any regrets, or should I say, lost.
I always learned something new and different. You might feel happy but they are deep as the sea, things that make you sad, in other words, you can't see the things that would make you sad, but in some time it would resurface, finally you knew what was right and wrong.
I guess every humans have that kind of level of perfection. Every humans are made not as perfect as he is but as best as he is. Some people had sense of hypocrite, seeing others as wrong and he is the only one right. I mean, that's totally stupid right? But how about the world, I haven't seen it yet, but I've seen the example.
I guess life is very unique. If we put fruits in a basket, they are many colours of them. Red, yellow, green, purple whatever it is. Every of it are so mysterious and questioning. Outside might be seen as ripe but inside might be foul. It may smell good but taste like shit. XDD
But you see, the one that you want that fills your wishes are the ones that taste, look and smell good. We don't know what are the outcomes of people and what would happen to us. Is it fate? Is it coincidence? To know it, you have to take risk. So eat the fruit one by one and feel it, how do you go through them. Bitter? Sweet? You'd have to take it. :D
I finally learned the moment I say goodbye to my friends in SAB was really hard. To move onwards is not a must but rather as a choice. That's why the sky is too far, the moment you leave, is moment you would think "Did I do the right thing or not?" You'd even asked yourself even more.
But when I learned about "survival for soldiers" training, deserted in the jungle, going out in the darkness of the jungle at night, it's not about giving up but hope and confidence that you have, it's all about moving on for changes. Time won't go back, so does the people passed away, like my friend in RMC, won't come back.
"Putera-Putera Kanan! Akan berjalan keluar! Dari Kiri, Perlahan Jalan!"
*drum beats, "Pertemuan, Perpisahan, adat manusia biasa..."*
Every second from the marching command that was given, I was thinking about the line that I finally escape from. I mean, was all the things I went through, shining shoes, being military and punished in such way at still teen age was really, really, a worth thing that should I do?
Or how should I say, the seniors whom had given us much of things, what have I learned from them? Or should from the very beginning and before I chose my hair to become bald to make myself the same treatment as every "soldier boys" was really such a thing, that I should or shouldn't have chose? Should I myself stayed the same place where I've stayed from the very beginning?
I knew either way, I would still part away from the thing I used to have. But should I? Is it true that the people who worries themselves are stupid?
From that, I kept ignoring that question on my mind and continue to sing.
"Hilang di mata tapi di hati takkan lupa. Berdoalah kita agar aman dan sentosa. Semoga kita berjumpa lagi satu masa... Should all acquintance be forgot and never brought to mind?..."
But I can't run away from it. So I chose to cherish and laugh with all my might. :D
What I've been through, that doesn't matter really you know. I don't wish to tell it because 2010 was so dark that I myself learned so much from it, and yet it was the year I converted myself from my civilian life to military environment. Appreciating, friendship, hardship, laughing. It was so much of mixed feeling.
That's why they say "strong men don't cry." Finally I escaped with all being patience and finally, I'm a senior. The last days would be the last moments. The past are memoirs. "Yang lepas itu jadikan tauladan." Isn't that the right word? Maybe. But staying strong, patient and holding on, finally it made a real man standing on the battefield. Lest we forget.
More to come? Stay with me. Happy X-mas to everyone who is putting the stars on the tree and presents on the floor. ;D
"Semoga kita akan berjaya."
Asyraf Amir. 2010-2011.
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