~Talks~: Between the two roads.

Hey, what up? :)

Well, today, I kind of lost my energy.

Lost some spirit you know. XD

Yeah, kinda.

Today, I'm not going to post my writings (well, I will post it later! XD)

Today, I'm just going to post what I think. :D

I'm not using so-hard-to-understand words, well, trying to write in simplest method here. XD

Well, here, I just wanna write about what I think.

What I review, what I see and what road am I walking on.

Well, don't get me wrong, I'm not being emo-istic.

I'm just fine. Not sad, not happy, not anything. Just fine.

You know, when you're running, suddenly you found hardships.

You found you're in nowhere. There's no signs.

The choices are yours, you're on your own.

Any decisions are ultimately yours. Your destiny is still unknown.

Being in a new environment, is hard.

In fact, I've never been so isolated in my life.

Unlike the life when I was in SAB, at first I kinda feel not good, after a year, finally I've gotten used to it, which is to say, I am grateful. :)

I mean, who doesn't loves their youthful times?

I think now I finally understood what's the meaning of "decision".

Maybe I did made a mistake in my life, leaving my memories behind.

Well, I do admit, it is hard to leave your past behind. Because there's so many laughs and canvas you made, finally you left it.

Then at here, I suddenly thought about my youthful times, will I still get it in my present school?

Probably we were so keen on our objectives before, but then silence breaks.

Those cheers, those waves and everything, at some point, you laugh until you forgot it's your last day that you're there. :)

Now, I can only stare out of the window on the blue sky and the sheep-like clouds moving.

Reminiscing those days.

When you're playing any kinds of games, sports, chess, monopoly and whatever you can think of, you can do anything.

You can decide anything, but whenever you made a mistake, you can reverse anytime you want.

But in life, I guess I learnt something, possibly something meaningful in my life.

Possibly I would remember forever in my life.

That is, decision. You can't turn back, you need to move forward.

I guess I've already learned about it long time ago.

But nevertheless that, I've never face such hard decision like this.

To go back, I may receive my pastime, but it's not good because your friends, everyone, had supported you. There, you return as nothing but in lost and behind.

To go forward, there might be something, but there'll be uncountable numbers of sweat and tears that I may have to repeat back. Which is to say, leave your memoirs behind.

What if you keep on running, the road going back becomes dead end and you have no other choice but to run? Will you run?

I guess I have to search for that "sunshine & rain". Not wait for the storm to come by.

Miracles do happen. But we have to search for it too.

Well, what I wrote here is, you might say it's pointless.

But, I'm just writing here on what I thought about 3 weeks ago. :)

When you're making a hard decision regarding about your memoirs and your future,

You saw there's two paths, possibly more.

But when you chose a decision and think it is right, you suddenly feel it is right, but you just lose something. Out of your grasp, you can't do anything but to move on.

All choices and decisions are like that I guess. It leaves regrets.

But hey, days and years will pass, will the jokes we made still be laughable? ;)

"Autumn passes by, the dead leaves scatters.

Am I the last one to understand everything?

I assume like so."

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